There are words inside.
I feel the weight of them
as I wake in the morning
move through the day
& rest at night.
I pull out a pen and paper
to capture them –
but on this early morning
dark outside
& soft lights glowing inside-
as I sit,
the words lose their
weight –
their urgency.
They are only words
& in the light and quiet
& stillness
of this moment
they will wait
they will have to wait.
The newness of this day
before anything begins moving
the hush of the world
outside my window
the soft glow of the lights
the fresh snow that made
everything clean and new overnight
the warmth coming from being
curled up in a chair
with a blanket & the kitty-
no need to rush
to move
to do.
The words are still important
but their weight has shifted.
No longer heavy
and pressured
tumbling over one another
to get out.
The are soft and gentle
waiting their turn to be released-
gentle as they step forward
into the light.
There is a peace
in the early morning
darkness –
often missed –
a comfort
that wraps around one’s
soul.
A hot cup of tea &
a warm sweater kind of feel
that we miss
in the “10 more minutes under the blankets”
& the rush to get the day started.
There is a peace in the presence
of the Holy One
who settles
with and in me
when the words become
weightless
the light shines in the
darkness
& the warmth overtakes the
cold.
There is a peace –
here and now.
There is a hope-
of a peace to come.
I realize…
it is not that
there is no peace
for my soul.
It is that I have
not paused
long enough
& often enough
to allow it to settle
on me
within me
beside me.
Here in the hush
of the early
morning
my pace has slowed
enough
that I am well aware
of its presence,
the gentleness of its caress,
how it fills me
with love &
gratitude
& hope.
There are words inside me
I feel them –
not weighty & pressured-
soft & gentle –
bringing a
quietness
to my heart & mind…
welcoming the One
who is Peace –
the one who soothes
my fractured soul.